i am thankful...

i am thankful for a Father who loves me just the way i am, but loves me too much to leave me that way...

for kids who make me laugh, cry, angry and hope for the future...

for sisters who i can always count on...

for friends who are there for me in good times and bad, who love my kids when i can't be there and who pray for me...

a church family that loves me and my boys, care for us when we are in need and hold my feet to a righteous flame...

Happy Thanksgiving Week!

not so magnetic...

so, I just had my annual doctor's appointment last week and they called with the results of some my tests. gotta say, it's a good news/bad news kinda thing.

all my cholesterol numbers were really good! both good and bad cholesterol looked good. so that's good...enough with the good and bad thing?

my thyroid numbers were low again which is bad, but that also means that my weigh loss has been slowed down because of it! so when they move back up the scale may move back down!

my iron is low...no new news, but it caught me by surprise because i haven't felt the fatigue i usually feel when it drops this low! the nurses in at work just gave me all the reasons why it is a big deal that i am 1/3 low on my iron but they couldn't make a case for fatigue cause of Spark!

thanks for the present abba...

i got the nicest present from God tonight.

i had just dropped off my sweet boys with their amazing aunt cindy so i could work all night in the ED. it's still kinda melancholy leaving my boys to work. i would so much rather be with them than away from them, but i have been thankful since the necessity of working outside of the home was thrust upon me three years ago that God blessed me with a job i really enjoy. if i have to be away from my boys at least it's doing something i like. but tonight God gave me the prettiest sunset to watch all the way to work. it was a typical lake shore sunset with blue, lavender, pink, red and orange mixed with wispy clouds, but right in the center where the sun was going below the horizon there was a wide band of light shooting straight up that made all the colors a shade lighter then those on either side of it. it was so beautiful, amazing and generous, so God!

my abba  loves me!

...guess what i did today!

well it finally happen, my pants are getting too big to wear without pulling them up all the time! pretty cool, and luckily i have tons of clothes in sizes that go down. i just pulled out pants that are 2 sizes smaller than when i started this journey and am throwing away my fatter pants...as opposed to the fat pants i just fit into, which will become my fatter pants as soon as i fit into the next size or two down! it's kinda like the Tao of weight loss...

the only problem is that until i get to my goal weight i am going to look like i'm wearing clothes from a vintage clothes store.

hey! where ya been...

i know, i know...i've been gone for a couple of weeks! i've had a bit of a crisis of confidence, a hugh work week and of course a lack of inspiration on what to write.

i had a great time at the trade show 2 weeks ago, but people showing interest created a need to follow up with people and that...created inner angst. i hate calling people to ask if they want stuff that they can call me about if they want it! did you ever see the movie "Uncle Nino"? in the movie there is a lady in the neighborhood of uncle nino's family who whenever you see her ask "do you need any blush, toner or scrub? oh, ok i'll check with you tomorrow." i so don't want to be that lady!!! so i went into hiding and silence, which was really easy since following the trade show was my busy week at work...

now on the other hand my sister is handing out Spark to anyone she thinks might love it as much as she does! i guess it's easier to try and sell something for someone you love than for yourself!