still turning heads...

i was driving to church this morning and a guy turned and looked at me...

all little girls and big girls too want to be thought of as pretty. i never knew if i was pretty and felt anything but all the way through high school. i don't know why...some would blame it on my dad not being around to affirm me in my worth...some would blame teasing in school...others a mom that didn't know her beauty and so couldn't assure me of mine...for whatever reason it was never something i felt...pretty.

in college it was overwhelming and heady when guys were attracted to me...with no preparation i didn't handle it very well...beauty and sexuality were often confused.

today when that guy looked at me i found myself at first thinking i can still turn heads and then just as quickly i realized it wasn't as important to me as it use to be. the only head i want to turn is my faithful loving Father's, who sees me as i am...i want to live in such away that He turns His head and says "that's my girl!"